(Cont) a split second could mean death. Then teach you how to profile but “we dont profile” wink nudge. So you show up see a man bent over a woman when someone calls, says they heard screaming. React. Guy is raping her. Nope. She was having a seizure. He was her helper. Friend of mine attacked him. Easy mistake when they teach you that. Friends quits bc of guilt. Me? Always got reamed bc I didnt give out enough fucking tickets. Fuck that. “Find curfew breakers. Find lapse insurance.” (Cont)

(Cont) I would sit in parking lots running random license plates while all my coworkers ride on people’s asses in the middle of the night to trick them into speeding. Its not about upholding the law and arresting criminal. You’re a fucking snitch, trying to fin ANY lawbreaker bc you can’t be lazy. Then you see some fucked up shit. Little girl goes missing. Find her in a creek, head cracked up on a rock. Animals picked at her for a few days. You get desensitized or you can’t do the job. (Cont)

(Cont) so you get numb to screaming and dead bodies and girls crying about boyfriends raping them or you go nuts. Me I thought well this small town they donr have Real Problems so they make me chase down 15 year olds with a cigarette to hand over tobacco tickets. I won’t do that so the other guys relentlessly bully me for being a pussy lazy PoS. I go to city with real problems. Same damn thing. “Search for criminals! If you dont find enough you’re lazy!” We aren’t sitting around til you (cont)

(Cont) til you break the law we are looking for it even if its dumb shit. And then you go someplace big and tell you to look for suspicious things. Blackddues in nice suits are pimps. Black dudes in nice cars are dealers. Black women are crazy and best their boyfriends. Latina lie about being raped to get revenge. That’s just how it is. So you say hell no. They eat you alive. If you need therapy you’re a pussy. Hostage situation, black dude with knife holding a woman. I talk him down. (Cont)

(Cont) Guy gets arrested. I get pulled into the office and yelled at for NOT shooting him. Saved his life and hers and I got in trouble. Had to file paperwork. Didnt make any friends because they ront trust me. Cops will do drugs on weekends then arrest people for doing the same so they get their “quota” (which wink nudge dont exist). If a cop does something bad and you do the right thing and “rat him out” they will harass you. Found myself relocated when I testified against another cop. (Cont)

(Cont) Go to a different place. Same fucking shit. Cops get paid shit, taught to react first based on assumption, taught to specifically assume racist shit, taught to go OUT of their way to FIND shit, get thrown into an atmosphere of bullying if you dont comply, then get desensitized to shit. If you’re a good cop, You won’t make it , bc you can’t come out of that shit safe. I quit before I was forty. I’m fifty now and work in a mine. Fuck cops.

Ps - former cop - using my niece’s tumblr bc she showed me this, which is why I’m using anonymous. Not trying to harass anybody.

Copying anon’s follow up messages above to have the whole story in one place.

Thank you for sharing your experience, anon, and for confirming it – there are no good cops because good people who become cops either don’t stay cops or don’t stay good people. There’s no other option.