What if Kingsman candidates who don’t become Kingsman had to have their memories erased? Imagine someone does that to Eggsy after V-day. Merlin is livid when he finds out, but he can’t do anything about it. And when Harry wakes up from the coma, he finds that he has no Eggsy.
Imagine Merlin trying to hide it from him at first, and then having this dead look in his eyes when he finally tells him.
Imagine Eggsy waking up, confused, in his house, and not only he cannot remember the last months of his life, but also the world has nearly ended. He goes to doctors and they say it might be a side-effect from the sim cards. Or that maybe during V-day he committed such horrors that his mind has tried to erase them and went a little overboard. Eggsy is worried but not so much, bc his mum and Daisy are ok, and that’s all that matters. It also helps that Dean has been mysteriously arrested (Merlin’s work) and also that they got some money out of nowhere, enough to move out of that horrible neighbourhood and get Daisy to a good school.
He gets this terrible feeling sometimes, like there’s something he’s supposed to be doing, and finds himself missing people he can’t recall. He sees a blond girl with a ponytail and gets incredibly sad; glasses are suddenly a turn-on; he feels the need to call out a name he doesn’t remember when he sees a bald man.
Merlin stalks him through security cameras wherever he goes. Spends hours looking at him. He’s glad to have Harry back but, for the first time, he is not enough. Harry understands.
Harry? He’s a wreck. He’s lost an eye, he can’t go on missions anymore and the physical therapy is the worst and he’ll never be able to shoot a gun again bc his hands tremble so much. But above all he misses his boy. It kills him that he never had the chance to apologise and to tell Eggsy how proud he was for how he acted during V-day.
Once in one of his sessions of Eggsy-watching, Merlin spots Harry sipping a pint on a hidden corner of the Black Prince, subtly watching Eggsy laugh with his friends with a heartbroken look on his face. He’s wearing his glasses, so Merlin calls him and tells him to come home in the softest voice he can.
Eggsy notices him as he leaves, feels that weird “i’m missing something” thing that he feels so often nowadays, but the man looks very sad and he doesn’t want to intrude, so he doesn’t say anything.
Merlin is there when Harry gets home. He pulls him to bed and they cling to each other wordlessly. They don’t cry and they don’t sleep for a long time.
Eggsy finds a job somewhere, continues to live his life trying to ignore the weird feelings of longing and emptiness. But then one day he sees a girl getting attacked by a bunch of guys when coming back home late and, following some instinct, he goes to her rescue. Nobody is more surprised than himself when he beats the fuck out of them. The girl escapes during the fight, so when the police comes its Eggsy’s word against the one of the guys he’s just sent to the ground, so he gets arrested.
Seeing they want to put him behind bars for assault and battery, he uses the last resource he has: his father’s medal.
When Harry hears that familiar voice say “oxfords not brogues” he almost cries. He puts himself together and goes to the police station, Merlin watching anxiously from his glasses, and introduces himself once again to the young man.
After all, V-day left Kingsman painfully shorthanded, and there’s a fresh batch of candidates to be delivered in two days. Harry thinks Eggsy would make a terrific Bors.
Eggsy accepts.
(And this time, Harry makes sure to tell Eggsy that the gun is filled with blanks)