I have about 20,000 followers. A small but respectable amount. Enough to attract companies
And I’m a college student. I’m struggling for money. I grew up in poverty. I had became a promoter for a scam company. I’m so fucking sorry.
Last year I had been working at a university. I did research. I was published, even. But I was working so fucking hard to keep food on the table. I was working 3 jobs and taking 21 credits. My mental health tanked. I tried to kill myself in December. I was dismissed from the university and I’m a fucking disgrace now. I spent my Christmas break in the hospital.
I began trying to pick up the pieces. I am trying so fucking hard to get a job and I’m in a community college. I’m living at home. I have nothing. I’m trying so fucking hard to get up the money for my antidepressants every month but I don’t know how much longer I can do that and I HATE asking my parents for handouts because they’re not much more better off than me.
And so I thought that I could try to get some support through ad revenue and promotions and I’m so so so fucking sorry that it turned out to be a scam. I really really NEEDED that money and fuck I’m so stupid to think it would work out. My parents are trying to get me to move out by the summer and I don’t know how the fuck I’m supposed to do that.
I tried selling things through Etsy but no one ever bought anything so that didn’t work either.
I don’t know what to do. I was raised to never EVER beg for money. I would feel so fucking guilty. I don’t know what to do.
I’m trying so fucking hard to get a job but no one will call me back. I’m trying so fucking hard to sell though etsy. I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I’m so so so sorry that I had you guys involved in this. I’m so sorry. I love you guys so much. I’m so sorry. I’m trying so hard to stay positive but I just don’t have much of anything left in me. Fuck. I’m sorry.