my mom found out i have suicidal thoughts today and she was like shocked like GIRL u know i got major depression you know how it is because YOU ALSO have major depression we on that same bullshit 

so basically i had to sit her down and be like “okay u dont wanna hear this but that sucks so listen up ive been having suicidal thoughts since i was 12 it aint even an issue anymore. my reaction to suicidal thoughts is just “cool are you done? can i go back to my day or yall gonna be a drama queen today?” like the depression isn’t even an issue anymore im just tired of it im DONE fuck off” so we bonded over that and then talked about our attempts/near attempts and it was just nice to be able to be candid without people flipping the fuck out for once and god

she was at her worst around 20 and ive already got 8 years under my belt at 20 so shes proud of how strong i am bc she was going through hell at 20 when i did it at 12

and it was nice to be able to talk to her not as mother/daughter but rather as two equally depressed pieces o shit that are fuckin tired and willing to knife fight our mental illnesses in a fuckin Walmart parking lot