Ex Astris Scientia

kaijuno

my mom found out i have suicidal thoughts today and she was like shocked like GIRL u know i got major depression you know how it is because YOU ALSO have major depression we on that same bullshit

so basically i had to sit her down and be like “okay u dont wanna hear this but that sucks so listen up ive been having suicidal thoughts since i was 12 it aint even an issue anymore. my reaction to suicidal thoughts is just “cool are you done? can i go back to my day or yall gonna be a drama queen today?” like the depression isn’t even an issue anymore im just tired of it im DONE fuck off” so we bonded over that and then talked about our attempts/near attempts and it was just nice to be able to be candid without people flipping the fuck out for once and god

she was at her worst around 20 and ive already got 8 years under my belt at 20 so shes proud of how strong i am bc she was going through hell at 20 when i did it at 12

and it was nice to be able to talk to her not as mother/daughter but rather as two equally depressed pieces o shit that are fuckin tired and willing to knife fight our mental illnesses in a fuckin Walmart parking lot

my mom found out i have suicidal thoughts today and she was like shocked like GIRL u know i got major depression you know how it is because YOU ALSO have major depression we on that same bullshit

so basically i had to sit her down and be like “okay u dont wanna hear this but that sucks so listen up ive been having suicidal thoughts since i was 12 it aint even an issue anymore. my reaction to suicidal thoughts is just “cool are you done? can i go back to my day or yall gonna be a drama queen today?” like the depression isn’t even an issue anymore im just tired of it im DONE fuck off” so we bonded over that and then talked about our attempts/near attempts and it was just nice to be able to be candid without people flipping the fuck out for once and god

she was at her worst around 20 and ive already got 8 years under my belt at 20 so shes proud of how strong i am bc she was going through hell at 20 when i did it at 12

and it was nice to be able to talk to her not as mother/daughter but rather as two equally depressed pieces o shit that are fuckin tired and willing to knife fight our mental illnesses in a fuckin Walmart parking lot

mightycrustaceangod

PSA

peachfaeriie

i’ve been seeing this post a lot lately:

which means a whole lot of you don’t know the difference between an intrusive thought and an impulsive thought.

intrusive thoughts are a symptom of ocd and many other disorder, they are upsetting and often graphic, they are thoughts you do not want and that scare you, commonly thoughts about doing something violent or about abuse. i suffer from intrusive thoughts, they are triggering and upsetting and yes, dark or about killing people.

an impulse can also be a symptom of a disorder, impulses are not inherently bad and are just your brain telling you to do things with no thought as to why. some can be unpleasant, but they can also be things like “cut all your hair off” or “eat the cardboard”.

please stop saying that intrusive thoughts and impulses are the same thing, you are only adding to the stigma and misunderstanding people with intrusive thoughts face.

thank you.